Through Their Eyes

As I was writing this memoir, I realized something that had never occurred to me. There were certain words that were never heard of, or at least rarely heard of in the sixties and early seventies. The words that came to me were serial killer and incest. When that realization occurred, it sent chills throughout my body. Even though I lived with the most wicked and immoral parents imaginable, I never realized that I was living with exactly that. Even today I have a difficult time accepting some of the things that occurred during my childhood. If I did not live and survive these things, I would have a hard time believing it myself. My story is a story of survival and faith. It is a story of a couple who had such unhealthy perversions that they used their children to fulfill their most immoral desires. This was a childhood that did not know love, but only hate. Both parents used any means they could think of to control and manipulate their children through fear. Fear of being beaten, locked away or even murdered. I also realized as I was writing my story that these parents were not sick. They were evil. So evil that you never thought of going to Hell if you were bad because we were living in Hell. Nothing was off limits when it came to satisfying their thirst for the malevolence. My story is a testimony of faith and the power of the human mind. Living with almost every imaginable abuse possible, I knew there was something greater looking over me. As much I wanted to die almost on a daily basis, I continued to survive no matter how horrible the abuse became. My mind did what it needed to do to continue to exist. For that I am very thankful and blessed. I described events in this memoir that were difficult for me to include. They still make me feel ill, and they are very hard for me to accept. I don't think I would have done this story justice had I not included them. If you have ever doubted faith, please read this book. If you have met someone in your lifetime who has suffered any type of trauma, read this book. If you are currently struggling and don't think you can make it, again read this book. If you have wondered if a Higher Power exists, read this book. I wrote this book for one reason, and that was to give people an understanding of how strong we really are. How we can overcome anything if we stay strong, and during the moments we may become weak, our faith will help us prevail.